[ This is a short journal entry I
keep usually after meditation.
These are not in any order and they are from 1996 and 1997… ]
Mindfulness
While Rollerblading... Mind Shift
While rollerblading with Fern I noticed that when I looked down at
the pavement there was a point where the pavement started to turn
blurry (about 5 feet in front of us as we rode). Different colors
were seen in the pavement in streaks. Not only did the pavement
appear grey, but it was other colors as well. I saw white, green,
and red too. These combined to make the grey. Continuing to look
down, the eyes saw that if the blurryness was focused upon the most
amazing thing happened... The pattern of blurriness appeared to
change from only a linear pattern like
l
l l l
l
l l l
l l l l l l
l l
l l l l l l l l l
l l l
l l l l l l l l l l l l
l l l l
Left foot Right foot
and coming at this body in this pattern, to a pattern that can only
be described as fluid-like (water-like) and a pattern like fish
scales that moved horizontally, diagonally, and vertically.
The entire effect on the mind was like a fantasy state where one
felt as if a waterfall was being skated upon. An instant sense
of calmness, mindfulness, and non-thinking were prevalent upon the
mind. There was no time, no skates, no “me”, no “fern”.
So entrancing was this state that the eyes didn’t notice cars or bikers coming towards it!
The other experience was that when one looked at the pavement far in
front (say 6+ feet) it appeared as the mind has known concrete all
along--as solid, unchanging, immovable, inflexible, etc. But, when
the eyes focused on that point in space where the solid line started
to blur because of the speed the body moved over it a remarkable
thing was observed. Reality turned to fantasy at about the 5 foot
away mark. The solid turned to liquid and impermanent, changing,
flexible, moving, etc. The mind registered this and then when the
eyes looked away at the trees and surroundings a certain
“impermanence” and transitoriness was observed in all that the eyes
examined. Nothing seemed as one has “known” (experienced) it to be
all along.
While meditating tonight a curious thing was experienced. I saw the
shadows or shapes of two heads, the one on the right was turned
towards the one on the left who was facing me (as if I were
observing it). The shape on the right said, “why don’t you tell him
that I’m inside you” to the other head shape. The one on the left
said nothing, but was trying to figure out what the R. Head meant.
Then “I” realized that the L head shape was myself as I meditated
trying to figure out what the R head meant. Then I realized that
the R head was me also! But, it was the essence of me (soul?) that
was telling the “outward me” (the body the essence is using) that it
needed to tell the entire organism that the essence exists inside of
this body (host).
I was quiet for much of the meditation tonight. Some thoughts came
and went. Some were lingered upon. Sometimes all was quiet and no
thought (or awareness of breathing) was known. Other times the mind
showed visual scattergories of subjects. One that sticks in mind
was a key that was stuck inside something that had a (carved?) out
section to fit the key exactly (like an inlaid pearl), but not that
the key would fit exactly (like a lock). It was as if two wooden
blocks or coconut halves were separated and the key lay inside one
of the halves and fit just perfectly as if it was there, hidden,
waiting to be used. I remember thinking that this is a key for some
aspect of mindfulness/meditation.
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