I notice that now that I’m a bit older, I’ve become smarter.
Not book smarter so much, but just smarter about life.
I’m smarter about what I know. Who I am. What I can say
to others and how it will affect them. I’m smarter about
things in general…
I have said things within the last 5 years like, “If I only
knew THEN what I know NOW.” This makes me sound
really smart. Really, what I’m referring to when I say
that is – I’m much more aware of what I can get away with.
If I knew how much I could get away with when I was
younger… WOW what a blast I would’ve had.
Not to say that I didn’t have quite a bit of fun when I
was younger, but I would have had quite a bit more!
This notecard came to me as I realized that there really
isn’t a perfect ANYTHING in this world. Things that we
thought were attainable when younger… major goals
for our lives – were just a “fake”. Most goals that we
really are trying for, and trying and trying – are just
fakes. They are realistically unattainable by nearly
everyone. Those writing books about how attainable
“it” is probably haven’t attained “it” either.
Anyway, these 3 are DEFINITELY unattainable.
Once you think you found the perfect love, the
perfect sex, or the perfect job – it changes out from
under you. Your idea of what is perfect changes.
Or, you just never reach it and it’s always some-
where off in the distance.
What else is fictional once you hit 40?
Sex 4 times in an evening (without enhancement)
Getting along with everyone.
Reading a good book (this might just be my own
problem. I cannot find a book I like anymore.)
Seeing a good movie (again – just my problem?)
Meeting another same sex friend that I enjoy
doing ANYTHING except playing sports with.
(yes, this too – my problem I’m sure)
Hmm, any other ideas?